It takes courage to name both desire and fear in the same breath. You’re not alone in that tension. Scripture is full of people who were called by God and trembled at what it might cost them—think of Moses (Exodus 3–4), Jeremiah (Jeremiah 1:6–8), and even Jesus in Gethsemane (Luke 22:42).

To ask God to “empty you of yourself” is a bold and beautiful prayer—but it’s not a prayer for punishment, it’s a prayer for deeper life. Jesus said, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will save it” (Luke 9:23–24). What feels like loss is actually the path to gaining what matters most—Him.

God isn’t out to erase you; He’s out to redeem you. When we surrender our will, our control, our pride, He fills that empty space with more of Himself—His peace, His power, His joy (Galatians 2:20; John 15:11).

And yes, it’s okay to be afraid. But fear doesn’t disqualify you from faith—it just gives you the chance to practice it. Even Jesus prayed, “Not my will, but Yours be done.” He felt the weight of surrender, but He trusted the heart of the Father.

So if your heart is being tugged, you can start small. Pray honestly: “God, I want to be emptied of myself, but I’m afraid. Meet me in this fear. Help me want You more than I want safety.”

He’s a good Father. He’s not looking to destroy your life—but to give you real life in Him (John 10:10).